| this one isn't as scary as the last one i had here. so now here is a non scary me. |
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| I'm kind of tall, with short blond hair and really pretty blue eyes (or so I'm told), I often don’t know who I am and almost get locked out of reality and into a different world. I have nightmare’s when I don’t change the sheets often enough. I feel like a little kid even though I’m not. I wish my body looked more adult because then it would be easier to convince myself I’m older. I always feel like someone is abandoning me when they walk away even when I know they aren’t. Sometimes someone in my head does things for me even when I don’t want to but it’s never anything bad. I’ve been alone for so long that I have to leave people and take a break every once in a while because sometimes it’s too much to handle. I love sleeping because I can forget and escape, but sometimes things follow me into my sleep and then I don’t see black, but images and they aren’t always happy. I don’t like long sleeved shirts because they make me feel trapped but I wear oversized jackets almost every day because they remind me of my ‘older brother’ and they make me feel safe. I do things overly sexual and unlike me to attract attention from guys because I feel broken. I don’t think they are attracted to me because more girls like me then guys and it confuses me because I’ve always liked guys but recently I’ve like girls as more too. I don’t like when I like people because then they have too much power and they all hurt me without realizing it. I hate my body because everyone thinks I don’t eat or throw up because I’m too skinny and it’s not natural even though I’ve always been like this. I just don’t understand why the only explanation is me being broken can’t I just be me and be normal. I don’t like organized religion because they steal out rights and don’t treat us as equals. I’m always afraid and want to cry but no matter how sad and scared I am I can never make the tears come out. They only come out when things die and I think I should be able to cry and smile and laugh like a normal person without faking it. I hate when my friends are sad because I can’t fix it and make it better. I give away everything I have because someone always needs it more than me and even though they don’t I always think if they don’t need it they won’t ask for it or take it but they do anyway and it hurts because I can’t keep it for myself because it would be mean. I wish I was naive because I don’t want to know some of the stuff I know and I don’t want to remember anymore. |
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- Current Residence: Somewhere
- Interests: Music and literature
- Favourite movie: Peter Pan staring Cathy Rigby
- Favourite band or musician: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
- Favourite genre of music: Rock, oldies, alternative, heavy metal, etc
- MP3 player of choice: iPod
- Favourite game: Mario Cart
- Favourite gaming platform: Play Station
- Personal Quote: 'Even the blind change their view.' -Savatage
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Another friend? My goodness, you guys down there always seem to be on here! XD
Anyway....hi. :3 I R sister to Vivi. (So don't think I'm like, a creep spamming your page. XD; *shot* )
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Dr. Lazarus: By grabthar's hammer...............what a savings.
Seriosly.
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Oh yes.
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Dr. Lazarus: By grabthar's hammer...............what a savings.
Seriosly.
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~Spell_Finder~
*~*Kitty*~*
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~Spell_Finder~
*~*Kitty*~*
Might I ask your relation to her? :3
If you know what I mean. Otherwise, ignore me.
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Chaotic beginnings lead to happy endings.
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Chaotic beginnings lead to happy endings.
I got here by clicking the Random Deviant button. Enjoy dA.
Cheers.
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Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
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